Allow Yourself Morning

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Allow Yourself Morning

I was kind of quoted in the Chicago Tribune.

If you knew the kind of “time” I’ve been having the last few weeks/months/years, you’d understand why the traffic of The Root article and now this Tribune quote means a lot more than it probably should. No matter how much we like to think that what others think doesn’t matter, it’s just not true. I’ve never believed that. I choose whom to believe and about what but it does matter. And feeling appreciated and understood and treasured by others when you can’t manage it for yourself is important.

At least to me, anyway.

My motto the last few days has been, “Allow yourself morning.” People who have any form of depression should understand what that means. It means, wait until tomorrow. And it means forgetting you said that yesterday and saying it again today and tomorrow and the next day and the next day until something helps you out of bed. Then out of the door. Then somewhere that is safe and helpful.

No matter how bad it gets— and it does get bad— allow yourself morning.

Things aren’t suddenly spectacular because of reasons but yesterday, I got my hair done. Today, I got my eyebrows done. Tomorrow, I’m going to Target to buy moisturizer and I’ll probably leave there with a talking trash can and 85 things that “only cost a dollar!”  but forget to buy the moisturizer completely. Then on Monday, I’ll have to go back to Target to get it and a salted caramel hot chocolate from Starbucks. And then Tuesday, there will be another reason to put a foot in front of the other.

Allow yourself morning. Even if it means, you stay in bed because you don’t trust yourself to get out of it. Give yourself that day to do that but the following day, find any excuse- any excuse— to get out of it even if it’s just for 5 minutes. But all you need is permission for one morning and then the next and then the next and then the next.

This thing can be roadblock or sliding door. That sliding door could be made of stone and barbed wire and jagged glass teeth but it can be moved.

Allow yourself morning.

And candy.